Ever think about running away?

There's so much I'd like to write about...really just to talk my problems out...but I can't because you know...blogs aren't completely secret...and sometimes, you get found out. I could get in hot water with my family (and make matters worse) if I vented about what's on my mind. So suffice it to say...I'm dealing with some very serious family issues and feel like I have no where to go. You know...I've told God..."Okay...I'm giving it to you. You do whatever you think best." But you know...it only seems to get worse. I know when you give it to God...you're supposed to leave it with him. But man...Please God...fix it. Okay...I'm showing my "not so good of a Christian side." I know. I guess I should be praying that God fixes me because as it is...I'm at my wit's end...and don't know what to do. (By the way C and A are not the problem...they are fine.) Anyhoo, I'm going to have to deal with the person that is dealing our family all this grief this weekend...and I just want to run away and let M deal with it. (Yes, the "not so good of a Christian or wife side is showing again.) I just don't feel like I can handle any more of this.