Emptying my mind...

I am so overwhelmed right now. Not a good point for me to be. I thrive on organization. I hate clutter. I don't know how it got to this point but sometimes it happens. Maybe it's because within the last month, A has a major science fair project ("Whose Mouth is Cleaner: A Dog's or a Human's?). She won first place! And now, a reading project which requires building a log cabin and the landscape from Sign of the Beaver by Elizabeth George Speare. The landscape and a half built log cabin is covering my dining room table...and will probably be there all weekend. Well, of course, this kind of homework isn't just for A...it's for me, too. Like I have time to go through 4th grade again! On top of these projects, she is preparing for LEAP. That child is doing homework until 10:00 pm every night. She has dark circles under her eyes. I think I'm stressing for her.

My house is a mess...and I've got plants and seeds that really need to be planted...and more coming in from Gurney's, Michigan Bulb, and gardenerschoice.net any day now. I can't walk into my closet. Ugh. I wish the weather would warm up and stay that way. This cold one day, hot the next stuff is for the birds. I don't have a thing to wear...and if I do, I don't know it because I either can't find it or it's either too summery or too wintery. I keep telling myself...if I would just clean out my closet....I could go shopping again. Wouldn't that would make me feel better...to bring more STUFF into my already cluttered existence!!?!!!

I've started bringing home paper boxes from the office and just clearing out drawers and counter tops and any other surface that's covered with stuff. Then I put the top on the box. Eventually, I'll go through them...and throw them away. Anyway, I figure if it goes in the box and doesn't come out within a few weeks, I don't need it anyway. I've cleared my scrapbook room bed, a kitchen drawer...and tonight, I'm clearing my bathroom cabinet and my closet. I'm getting it done...or I'm going to go missing...only to be found years later underneath a mountain of STUFF right there in my closet.

Just today at lunch as I munched on my Whopper Jr...I thought how I needed to eat healthier. Funny how I'm thinking the exact same thing as I'm munching on a Hershey bar just a few hours later. I need my strength...I've got a monumental task ahead of me. Excuses...excuses....excuses.